Special Day

4th Birthday

He is four today. 12.03
His mom was preparing and coordinating with my sister at home town about possible his favourite birthday cake, Chase from Paw Patrol.

It’s his first birthday cake!

Many people around us still do not believe it, but it is true.
We did not give him a birthday on 1st, 2nd or 3rd birthday. Simply we thought, he does not understand it yet. But we know he wants one, when few weeks or months back, He wants to blow the candle.

We were glad to give him one.

He spend his entire birthday in my home town, a place I was raised. Running around the back yard and cycling around too.

He is learning to bike with his cousin. named Nadiya.
This girl is in advance level, while Noah still playing a catch up in term of agility and expert in manoeuvring the bike. Nadiya is like a motocross rider, trying to jump with her bike.

They had a good time together, good and bad.

dream, Prayer, Special Day


You just do not know what God will provide in your life. What plan and path He will lay on your life.

Today is the best moment.

An angel named k comes to rescue.

There is nothing more you can ask. We are so grateful. God is really good.

You were staying and standing in the tunnel for sometime though you can see the slightest light in the tunnel but you only be able move slowly as your time is running out.

Suddenly the light in tunnel seems to be the brightest light you would ever see in your life and the flow of the fresh air is a huge relief is like giving you another breath of life.

Someone just pull you out of cold and dimmed tunnel to the warm and bright world.

A beautiful world of hopes, dreams and possibilities.

Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.

This verse as my life-verse shows its strength and shine through the strongest in this moment.

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Noah will build with an ARK everyday until he grow old and have a BIG ARK and thanks everyone that help him.

One simple Act of Random Kindness everyday!

imageThis is the photo I like the most.
He was just around two weeks old.
Just woke up from the afternoon nap.

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500th day.

chin on our 500th days

Here is in our one of favourite place to have our special night. Cumi Bali!

We have been together for the past 500th days of our marriage.

Many stories in one life, we grow from one character to another individual that understand one another better which make us a much better people in many perspective of life.

We thank God for all He had given to us and what He has in store for us in future.

We only human, learn to curve many adversities and challenges ahead to be a better person.

Working hard to achieve the goal and create an anchor for our life. But surrender every plans unto Him.

When your will is God’s Will, you will have your will

Charles H. Spurgeon

In this phase of life, my spiritual grow like the mushroom in the forest. Wanting much to get deeper and understand much more than the time I had wasted on nothing i ever learn.

The compactness and tightness of time I have much more worth to know Him more.

Keep this heart, mind and strength of mine continue till the rest of my life. I don’t want to miss so many good things about You O Lord.

Love you much Jeen.

Special Day

A letter for you


Hi Dear,
30th Jan last year marked the start of our relationship. You are someone special in my life.

Everyday since that day, i am grateful. You are beautiful. You have been a very important person in my life.

Each day passed, each day bring so many new things & each day fill with so much discovery of life about you and me.

You have shaped me to be someone better. Develop the strength that I have and bold my weakness to be disappear.

I have become much more sure for the thing i doubt before and move to direction where i could be bold & precise. Because i know, you will be my side. Straighten in wavy lines and put every check point in it. Thank you dear. I love you.

We will not take for granted our relationship and will always make everyday fill with cares & loves.

You make the world a better place to be and I have never be enough to say “I love you”.

Do you still remember when you ask me to help old couple looking for their seat when we were in cinema? — I raise from my seat and walked down to the aisle directly and ask if i could help them to find their seat (just like the cinema attendee). Thanks for you encouragement.

Do you still remember when you want to “adopt” the old lady as our own grandma? when she could not bear to dine-in at KFC because its too cold inside and prefer sitting outside in the prata (Prata Wala).

You have encouragement in many more things. Thank you sayang.

You are all that I need. You are gorgeous, yummy sexy.. :D, fun, crazy, spontaneous, courageous, and many more reasons i love to spend my time with you

Love you.

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First holiday together

its our first holiday. such as day come very fast. the planned was way beyond few weeks.

simple word to describe it, i love it.

from this pretty short trip, and time we spend together to see the other side of the world without any familiarity we have here. we face challenge and venture it together. so many things we discover about each other. things we could not or probably we will have it later. we had it right there. it was a surprise for both of us but all of whole it was just sweet moments.

let me start with one example.

early in the morning in the hotel.
we had breakfast. i toasted a pair of bread, and spread peanut jam and butter on them, i gave it to her first to taste (as always, simply i want her to have the best one first, muaach.. love you) and i continue toasted another pair as she served me a coffee (as always, she is loving right? yes she is). well, nothing much happening here, as usual we serve each other.

in seconds, the toaster pushed out the pair, she took and spread the peanut jam but one of them felt down to the ground. i picked up and put on the side and toast another one as she started to put some jam on the other bread.

simply said, we had done with our simple breakfast. we about to prepare our selves to go out and here is the thing. so i took the bread that felt down just now with tissue. as we walked up, she signaled me to take it up to the room.

my mind was thinking like, “what is it for to bring it up to the room?” so i consciously looking for the rubbish bin around.  viola! i found one beside the receptionist desk, i said to her. “throw it here ya?” she replied me, “hmm, up to you” with a grind on her face. hahaha… i was puzzled.

on the way up, i asked her what was on my mind and she told me this, “we had dropped it and don’t let the receptionist know about it“, perhaps the bread are limited a pair to one person or something like that.

thinking back, it was funny, how both of us, have different mindset, different intention, and different way to face situation. we laughed a lot when talked about it on taxi on the way to Xi Men Ding.

there are indeed many we discover along the journey. it was fruitful and fun. we open up each other character, it makes me understand her more.

the whole journey was like, the hand-on experience we had together, laugh on our differences, but we enjoy it, simply because differences could only enrich each other, strengthen the weakness, dynamically color the life, grow to understand and appreciate it together.

we will aligned in one mind, but… i think occasionally connected will be great, too often? its predictable. i want her to be her self without changing who she is and me too, will fit comfortably being my self.

walk into this journey together without expect someone we love being what we wanted, but indeed to appreciate and to strengthen who she is and who am i.

can’t wait for the next trip dear.

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taste every drop

on friday, 1st of June. its our 50th date in our 4th month.

This life is great and exciting at the same time.
it brings so many unpredictable moments, peoples and blessings in your life.

it brings you someone that you love and care so much.
it brings you someone that you did not realize was there for quiet long and to be someone to share your life with.

sometimes, it brings unpleasant moment. feeling freaking sucked-up, it was like drowning into deep ocean… deep… very deep… until you can’t breath.. a moment that you thought you were so tired.. really tired..

But a moment after, it brings so much love after all the struggles you had been going through. When you feel you can’t breath, it gives you a biggest ever field so you can take a bigger look and dip beneath into as much as oxygen. When you feel so weak, it gives you prayers and great people around to strengthen you.

Life such as brilliant thing created to treasure it.

People always said quarrels will bring a breakthrough. agree and disagree about it. i still believe, communication is the most important element exclude all other important things that are essential in relationship.

sharing thoughts and feeling honestly, listen with humble heart and encouraging each other to share.

not an easy task, learning to understand the person is continuous effort, spending your time together, using up your energy, some time overly-worked your thoughts to try to understand that person because you care and you want to learn to understand your partner.

the best thing is not to assume anything.

its the 50th of our dates and about more than a hundred days. does not count on group setting with friends or attending church services. even many thing we have learned and grown one another, but there are always other new thing we discover, its exciting.

like a simple story about giving.

a glass full of water, where water could not be poured-in anymore. it will drop out of glass and wasted.

and when you start giving out, your glass will create a space for new things to come in, will bring new and refreshing thing into your life.

i think this short story is really cool, like really cool! ought to start giving and expecting less.

and never take for granted the thing that you love.

see here, everyday is a starting day for new thing in life. even in our life. we see new different thing, a new perspective, a chance to grow, a time to treasure.

every morning is a new beginning.. lets do it!

today (6th of July) shows another grow in our communication. thank you dear for your courage to speak lovingly. thank you for your sharing and initiative to make this relationship a beautiful and fruitful one for you and me.

still very much in love.